bella's world

Love is strong but the heart is fragile

2011-11-27T02:00:00.002+08:00

Lesson no.56 Love is never weak,Love is strog and pure,Its the heart's that fragile.

Love soo strong i just cant leave.But my heart needs repair.

If a couple were to quarrel,matters can be resolved.
But what if the root of the problem comes from someone else?

What if its by someone very close,a family member?

Both parties are torn apart and who should be chosen over the love of your life,your missing piece or your family?

The lovebirds are doing ok but pressure from his father who is against the marriage who is ALWAYS saying mean things about her and him torn apart yells at her?

What do I do? Only time will tell..

We are nearly engaged for a year but his father is still digging up buried bones.

I plan.He plan but God decides.

(sigh)

Another totally boring day

2011-04-07T16:37:00.003+08:00

Another day of waking up late..

Damn i fucking hate it if his mother(im living wth my fiance) tells me that i should waking up early because i am a women..And what kind of 'Anak Darah'.. if i were to translate the words will mean Anak=Child Darah=Blood Anak Darah=Childblood -_-?

Ok, so back to the topic again..She will say What kind of Anak Darah wakes up late?

What!! only men can wake up late?? And my traditional fiance Agrees with her not to mention his a VERY VERY mummy's boy..And the way his bought up, Women should Wake up in the morning,Cook,Do housework,Take care of the children etc..Men shoudnt THAT IS SOO SEXIST and ludicrous

We have total different views of bringing up a child,And he has this typical man mindset(now im sexist) HTH IN THE WORLD DID HIS PARENTS RAISED HIM UP?? HE IS VERY VERY DEPENDABLE ON HIS PARENTS ESP HIS MOTHER,MOM,WHERES MY SOCKS? MON WHERES MY HANDKERCHIEF,MOM CAN YOU COOK FOR ME NUGGETS,MOM CAN YOU GIVE ME $$ (which will eventually become money for his cigarettes)

And if i marry this handicap guy(his not handicapped just the way he is soo dependable), All those will fall on me right? His bloody 21!! Is there a sense of independence in him?Just a little sense? All this petty petty little things i say,is it soo hard to do it? Why cant he find his work pants,socks,cook finger food,do his bed, and be more independent?

Are men created to be totally dependable on the opposite sex?

Some may yes and some may say no.

Well, of all the houses i have grown up in,majority of them are independent..Soo my answer is NO.Men are not created to be dependable on Women.

Men doing housechores? Well,They do!!

Btw Check out this website: marriedromance.com i agree with

Another boring day

Weekend

2011-03-03T16:23:00.002+08:00

Soo this weekend is going to be our first trip overseas..Totally alone..

I dont meant to nagg but his mother interferes with our quarrels and its rather annoying..bt obviously dont say that right to her face -_-''

And right now she's forcing him by nagging to him to work in the traun station..wtf.

i mean its nothing wrong with that its a good honest job but if his old and work is hard to get then the train station is a co9mpletel ok job bt now he is a fit 21 years old man.A young man working in a train station giving out change and giving out cards and tickets?

What will our friends say?What is she thinking?

People will laugh at us..

Not only did we dropped out,now he is working in the train station..

And once again obviously i dont tell them this right becoz my fiance is such a mommy's boy that he will tell mommy everything that i tell him not to.

Like who am i to voice out n say anything..

He hasnt got the job yet his sending resume.I hope he doesn't get it..

Resolution <<< Too late

2011-02-17T04:39:00.005+08:00

ohkay..i happen to look at this random female friend of mine fb profile and iv egot to admit she looks gorgeous..Well she has a boyish figure and she look GREAT in whatever she wears(i mean frm the picts)

Its hard if ur a pear and unproportionate <<>

and slightly a bit to the heavy side

She has some what inspired me to lose weight..this person i dont know..

Well, my Future mother in law did compare me to herself when she was young..

And my fiance he 'FINALLY' admit that he wants me smaller.

And he told me im not pretty but sweet???

I wished my birthday was better..

I didnt celebrated with ANY friends..

Honestly for 19 years of my life a non of my friends have thrown a surprise for me..=)

And on my birthday, I met a girl my Fiance fucked.

Yes, i do admit that life is kinda lonely these days..

My wish list that Wont be fulfilled

A teddy bear

A DSLR

An engagement party

A short holiday wth my fiance

HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY!!

isst too much to ask?

A new year, A new goal,A new set of Headache

2011-01-30T15:58:00.003+08:00

Soo yup, this is my first post for twenty eleven.

Im engaged.
Im no longer schooling.
Right now life just evolves around me going to work, shopping,visiting my family(because i moved in wth my fiance),spending time wth my fiance, and the usual stuffs you do everytime between the time you wake up till the time u go to sleep.

Hanging out wth friends?

No.

Bestfriends?

Hah!! Zahirah aka Zara and me are soo Over!!

We had a misunderstanding, i tried to apologize but she was all B#$%& about it..

And not t0 forget facebook.

Its getting kinda boring though..Its always the same set of ppl wo comments on you or the lack of ppl commenting or nobody commenting..

bORING!!

A christmas engagement

2010-12-25T01:38:00.002+08:00

And soo it is..im getting engaged on 26 december to abdul rahman..

wow.soo fast.

i want a camera.SLR digital camera.

I want to earn money for clothes.

Im going to have an engagement dinner wth my future fiance.

Engagement party is in february.

Slimming is a must.

Need to activate my debit card.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!

countdown?

2010-11-17T02:15:00.003+08:00

Soo counting down 1 year from 11 november 2010.I wonder how it'll be a year from now..

My beb bestfriend zara n me aren't really in good terms.

My attendance Sucks.

I'm having problems with my dad-again.
Just got my pay yesturday..

68% happy.

The only thing which is still afloat right now is my love life.

Love.Is it finally the one?

Right now im even asking myself is there such thing as true love?

Is there only 1 person in the world who is meant for you?

I never thought to fall in love with someone whom i used to HATE soo much..

Here i am-In love again.

I think maybe this is the real deal but only time can tell.

Time will reveal the truth.
Time will reveal all faults.
Time will reveal everything.
Time is future.

ARBAA..

My ABBA man.

I believe in the ugly truth instead of a beautiful lie

2010-10-02T15:49:00.003+08:00

It is not love that is blind but Jealousy

People dont remember.revenge is sweet

Jealousy in romance is like salt in food.A little can enhance the savor,but too much can spoil the pleasure and,under certain circumstances,can be life threatening.

Revenge is a confession of pain.

A life without Love and Music is like a body without soul.

There's a reason why its called 'girls gone wild' and not 'woman gone wild'.When girls go wild,they show their tits.When women go wild,they kill the men and drown the bastards chldren in a tub.

Yes,im PISSED off and some people will hate me for doing this.But if some people are not soo blind,ignorant and down-right stupid.I wont be a bitch now.

I hate green but im seeing green

May these never happen to me

2010-09-30T04:49:00.003+08:00

My brother agreed on these..

The reason why people dont find true love nowadays its because when they come of age people will marry whoever they are with for fear that no one wants to get married to them because of old age and the common cases is that they just love their partners partially and is actually in lov e with someone else.

People who find true love or lets say their rightful life partner will go out of their way to find the person.

Asians marry out of fear.
Western marry for love.

Thats why we asian has an alarming amount of divorce rates.

Im going to stick to these believes.

Irony

2010-09-30T04:16:00.003+08:00

Was randomly singing some backstreet boy songs (yes i know its old school,hate it or like it i do listen to it at times).

I cant remember the title of the song now, and the irony of it is that the songs has some lyric with the words (a week) or something and its Exactly a week that i have not seen him.

Today after a few days, I broke down.Me a person who rarely does it broke down-again. For the countless times.

And the other thing that I dislike is people who wants to get close to you and use all those words like gorgeous or what soo ever shits.C'mon farhan!! Im 18 not 14 I got over you 2 years ago! Im 18 and more wiser and experience. Those flirting is not going to ignite old flames ok? geddit?!?!?!

And you moron! If i tell you that I want to only make friends with people who purely wants friendship and not some dirty talk or sexual relationship you have to respect my wishes.And treat me with fucking respect! Until then, your one of the *$&# that im going to IGNORE!

&%(& insensitive I am still in love with someone else ok?

Fad ask me out next saturday,he used to like me when i was wth ashraf but I dont like him more than a friend and still dont.Im not going to be with someone out of pity-someone told me that..

You know, you have NOO idea how much i miss Shahrin,im really controlling myself not to meet him or even tell him how i feel again..Im really trying to give him time and space..

LOVE

2010-09-28T18:38:00.004+08:00

If one day i tell you,I love you it means that i accept the person that you are and i dont wish to change you to someone else.

It means that i love you wholeheartedly and wish to stand by you through your worst of times..not mocking or looking down on you but giving you support,words of encouragement and even wiping away your tears.

It also means that i care to fight for what we have and, and that i love you soo much to not let you go.

It means loving you when you had a bad hair day,forgot to brush your teeth and even if you have trouble at work/school,in a bad mood and yell at me when you reached home..

Ill just laugh it off again..because i know how you feel,how tired you are,how your back aches,how stressed you are wth the work,

And i also know that at the end of the day,When the problems are solved.This things makes us stronger as a couple.As partners.As friends.As companions.As tag team members.As soulmates..

Black phase of life

2010-09-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

something really bad happend lately..wth financial problems and BGR i just crashed down when talking on the phone wth ashraf..i told him wateva that happened..

At a time like this like how it has always been in the past, ashraf was there for me..The only difference is his my frieend.

Zul is like trying to get me back or watsoever shits..

No way am i falling for it

unless i intend to play him out.

Some guy wants to know me on FB but right now to me BGR can wait..

Although i kind of miss shah

24/9/09

2010-09-24T04:34:00.003+08:00

Shahrin

Different.Unique.All rounded.Smart.Talented.Addictive Cologne.Sexy chuckle.Funny.Gentle.Rough.Tall.Nice voice.(Able to click-Bond)=KEEPER

Wat happened? We dated for a month.Wat happened? His feelings changed.More? Ill tell next time.Wat could possibly went wrong? We or maybe I didnt take it slow.

First date Esplanade Baybeats
Last?

What i want to do?

Give him time and space

How i feel? Sad.Relieved.Hopeful.Tired.Pain.
I mean seriously how do u feel about him? Do i really have to say? Ok fine.

I love him alot.I know i have very strong feelings for him.I want to be there for him.

Any lessons learned?

Always takes thing slow.Accept ppl for their flaws if you expect them to do the same.Forget about ur secret wish N if you wanna have lotsa Bf's prepare for LOTS of heartbreak..Thinking about it..Ill pass = )

How long do you intend to wait?

Im an impatient person at times.MOST OF THE TIME.Soo, this would be a challenge.

What happened to zul?

Tried asking me back.Rejected that moron.Worthless cock sucker.

How its gonna turn out?

I dont know.

How i want things to turn out?

The way i want them to.

Will it work out?

I dont know.

Past n Present

2010-07-15T13:54:00.003+08:00

A month ago..
i met this guy..
whwn he came into my life,everything was almost perfect..
whwne he got on board that plane..everything changed..

at first things were'nt too bad...then it got worst...
i couldnt cope wth it at first..i was a bit weak..i admit.
when u think u have found that almost perfect someone,no matter how bad it is u just dont want to let go..

when he left,i missed terribbly!!
after a while i somehow prepared myself for the worst..i learned not to put soo much hope into someone but at the same time love the person..
when i initiated it and he agreed.i wasn't shock or surprised.

i coped wth the situation v well i can say..

now, i still think of him often..
but im learning to live wtht him..
learning to start dating again...
i learned a lesson..

in fact, i think meeting him n getting my heart broken wasnt a curse or bad luck or by chance..
i think it happened for a reason.
i learned something when i was wth fuad.
when i was wth hafiz,ashraf,zulfaqar,khalid..
im going to write a book about it..
its like my self reference book..
if i ever happen to fall for someone soon..
ill look at this book for help..
ill warn myself.advise myself.
learn from the things ive been through..
life is EXTREMELY BUSY nowadays..

im in the west side story musical,acapella..alot of commitments..vv.hectic..
but il cope though i know i will..*winks*

perfect death for 2 stupid cyborgs bitch

2010-06-13T20:12:00.004+08:00

i took 1hr to go to the lan shop..
it was sppose to be 30min bt i had a little bit of quarrel wth the ugly dumb bitch at the previous one...soo, now finally i have found the PERFECT place which is of
1)excellent servive
2)great ambience
3)more food varieties

PERFECT!

1 thing that it lacks is though sadly,tis place just a little bit of renovation to extend the place to add a few computers.

and to someone out there...

_____ was j walking on the street wth alolipop in her mouth bout nt knowng that at 190kmphr a motor was speeding in her direction.Of course she got hit...
the poor little gurl was flung 100 mtres off the ground..surprisingly, she still managed to stand up but before she could even walk guess wat happens?
a car came by and again she got flung off the ground this time flying 3stories above groundand eventually hitting the lamp post wth a solid THUD on her head.she landed on a road in a heap.
nope,the story doesnt end there!!
a truck carrying 250kg of gasoline sped pass and dragged this poor little gurl in its back tyres..
she should have been screaming right?
the irony and twist of the story is she was shell like shocked.to shock to scream.to shock to feel the pain.
but you know what I DONT CARE because she deserve to die anyway..such a mean ugly,devoted pretty dumb cyborg bitch.

life aint fair for some of us.even when u r all proper and neat.tragic.

2010-06-09T22:12:00.001+08:00

IM DAMNED PISSED OFF!
IM WORRIED SICK!!

NOT worth it!!!
Not worth it!!

fool fool fool

3days on facebook consecutively and not 1 ONE oNE oNE oNe OnE reply???

wow!!!!awesome!!!

2010-06-07T14:53:00.002+08:00

wow..

the feeling right now is soo high...
im like on some kind of drug or something...
i ws...i am...
yay!! i actually popped some pills before i left home...
cool...,,MY WORDROBE actually reflects my life...its semi-neat now..
soo,life is semi-normal...
i did some late night soul searching and reconsideration..
some ppl did gave me some advice today n this moirnin,
i wanna thank u all...love u people

i did some thinking and i realise that life holds more meaning if i am the puppet master and i hold the strings...
i am the ticket seller
i am the ticket distributer
i am the popcorn seller
i am the usherer
i am the cinematographer
i am the cleaner
i am the the stage master

from now on the stage is mine...
everyone is playing on my stage

2010-06-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

i cant stop feelings..
ur mind may say no but this heart,it just beats fa...

i dont know...

im just soooo sad....

damn
damn

damn

i love you
im afraid to fall in love wth u but no matter how hard
my mind tells me not to fall deeply,the deeper i fall..

omgosh!!!

i never felt like this in a very long time...
argh!!!!

not much of a poetry person maybe this is the best that i can come up wth

2010-06-02T11:38:00.003+08:00

not much of a poetry person maybe this is the best that i can come up wth

wat is wrong wat is right?
who's the one that i belong?
i know who's here to start a fam
but my heart who always seek danger goes to him
he loves me v.v.much, i dont know
only words and songs are told.
he nt good in words but a gentlemen
you on the other hand, too true to be only my man
we took things slow,chem fades
we came 2gether fast,how will we last?
oh god,god show me a sign
may it be good or bad,dont leave me astray
wth ur greatest love,show me the way
if u trust i me,i will never leave you
if i didnt i would have left you
your hot, i love you
your beautiful,i love you
you seem soo promising
you'ev been keeping it ecer since.
what should i do?,what should i do?
only time can tell
i wont promise you because i know incidents will somehow happen
wait for me july2012
wth the will of god we will be together
she loves's u very much doesn't she?
i know where i stand.maybe i dont
i love u soo much baby
im holding 2 ropes, im the one in the middle
im breaking inside.im lost for choice for words
its repeating again,those doubts,uncertainties,2nd person
ur like my second pie
whom i threw aside when u came
history is repeating,history is repeating
will i do the same?
will i,shouldi,must i why??
why does it have to b this way?
why do we have to come to this?
o god o gdshow me the way
b it good or bad,SHOW ME
IM GONNA MISS U,U R ALWAYS HERE
we just dont click
we are 2 peas in apot
ur the light in my dreams
i dont dream abouit you

Moulin Rouge - Come What May

2010-05-29T16:12:00.001+08:00

This is 1 of my fav love duets

total eclipse of the heart

2010-05-29T14:50:00.003+08:00

right now I dont know wats wrong or right
good or bad...

what do u do if u know u r going to lose someone who is very dear to you?
will u cry to the wind?
sing ballets u both used to sing together?
write in a blog?
tell them how u feel only to get ur ass up in shit?
cherished the last few seconds and the days left the person has?
keep reminding them to keep in touch?
tell them u see them in heaven?

Bella strike back

2010-05-29T14:43:00.002+08:00

its only nw that i can actually call friends foe..
now i really know who is my friend.to tink that ur own friend couldpossibly tell tales
behind ur back even though whatever that is said is true...

Do u respect me as a friend or at least a human being?
from now on the matters of the heart or even my thoughts shall EVER be shared wth u!!

BIGTM!!!!!

ANNIVERSARY

2010-05-23T22:34:00.007+08:00

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wat was i thinking when i did this?
i was thinking of all those sweet celebrity poses..

ASHRAF!!! U ruin the picts.

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I LOVE MY LOCKS

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..Lovely..

P.s all of these picts were taken on the 9/5
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Sleep allures to me

2010-05-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

today is a sleepy day...ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz

Just gotta b rich,thick skin,bimbo

2010-05-17T14:40:00.006+08:00

the only way for me to be able to take a cab to school every morning wtht feeling a hole in my pocket.is i gotta b rich...i suck in puntuality,if im rich mayb i will get away wth being late..even rich ppl are punctual!!!
thats a bad point of me.
A lecturer said that ppl who are time efficient tend to walk fast..i walk fast.but still im late..and if im late..guess which one
a) i skip lessons
b) i dont attend school
c) sheepishly appear in classroom wth a lame excuse
d) write parents letter

the answer: ALL OF THE ABOVE

Thats why i gotta have either a transparent face or a face made of steel
Thats my bad point.

I see myself as a good actress..i act well.
ok,my ''surprise'' charade wasn't the best but did I really look like that?
A girl next door kinda may do such a thing..

maybe u didn't watch alot of american movie bt lots of korean or taiwanese drama..
mayb ur just too rich and dont have enough time to go out of ur bzy schedule of shopping for luxurious and expensive stuffs to go the pictures

i suggest you u watch movies like mean girls(oops i dun have to teach u ur abitch urself)
maybe some charlie chaplin,gone wth the wind,the broadway melody..

alrites hunks n babes i gtg

2010-05-05T15:10:00.003+08:00

have you felt like ur on top of the world for 1 moment and the next, it just goes crashing down?
well then maybe you have a vague idea of how i felt...

i felt smething which i didnt felt 4 a REALLY long time..i cant really describe what is was but if im not mistaken its almost enlightenment..
almost but not to that climax yet..not climax as in a sexual way, but like hitting the highest happiest point.

and when things come crashing down,its like a stab in the chest.a pain you can feel physically but emotionally..u cant cry even though u want to..
and right now the only thing which can describe that feeling is the rain which i can smell and see..rain keeps on pouring...even though it stops raining, the afterward effect of it is evident and the dews keep falling...an empty bucket that is pouring and pouring no matter how empty it is..

well maybe there are more than 1 bucket but lots and lots of it..and there are still more tears to cry next time and its not the end of things..maybe the rain brings a sunshine..maybe

in the 2010

2010-02-15T14:19:00.005+08:00

Has been damn loong that i have not blog..
roughly around 4months..THIS IS THE full story frm den til nw
2009
PASS YEAR
Not only has the year 2009 passed bt things have also changed..for the better and worst

For my attachment,I was posted to Retail under this winter shop called winter time..
At first it was boring..then more people came.and left.and came.and left.and came.and left
etc..lei bing,regina,nicole,ewin.

I also started a new relationship,nope nt bgr but mdr* which is mother daughter relationship..
I dont knw whether she's faking it or wat but I cant ask for more..this is wat fate has decided so ill just take it..
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2010
(Read this) [NEW YEAR was boring! i spent it watching the
countdown on tv when i had tickets and sppose to b there]
Had my results for attachment B..total cummulative GPA 3.548
Applied for leisure and travel operation,hospitality operation,business studies event management.

PRESENT MOMENT
Me and my semi retarded boyfriend..Ashraf we're normal i would say..there's always ups n down's..its our 10 month this month..to think of it...soo fast 10..

and right now im in the midts if shiffting house nw..frm attachment period with constant trip and tons of printed documents,we finally have a place.I finally have a house!yeah!!
me,zauwin and the old father..=)
ill be moving out in maybe another 2 months time..in yishun.

oh yah n right nw im like trying to lose at least 5k..im getting more chubbier in certern areas which has best not to be mentioned..(Ladies,we understand n know where)
and my CCA acapella has been performing alot recently etc..spore idol,jazzanova,ite college west graduation,beach fiesta..

Im currently under this agency century evergreen..im working as a waitress in several hotels like mandarin oriental,keppel club.im working my big ass off to get money to support myself and also for the furnishing of our house..

orite i gtg nw.gtg back to woodlands..thats all for now bye..

2009-09-14T22:24:00.003+08:00

hey hey..
today's the last day of test paper meaning the last day of having to study for this year..
Im like kinda glad yet sad..its a bit hard to believe that the year is coming to an end and 9mnths has passed.
Just 9mnths ago I was a new comer in school now,im nearly finishing my tourism course and just waiting for my 2months attachment.

times really really passed fast.yup in fact in another like 6 more daqys time its hari raya..I cant wait for it..I just love having money..Talking about that,i have nearly spent all my money..

Oh yes not to forget,I just rebonded my hair too..they had this really good offer at yishun..
well i was getting tired of having hard time managing my wavy hair soo to solve the prob i rebonded it.
Not to mention i want to look good for RAYA and ashraf's resonate on 14nov.
\Big things are gonna happen..
It may be a hit or disaster but I believe in him and JIA YOU he can do it..
and today's paper was pretty ok..manageabl..maybe i OVERSTUDIED..
being me..

orite gtg nw..

2009-09-02T13:21:00.003+08:00

SPEND MY AFTERNOON AT THE ANG MO KIO LIB WTH A FEW OF MY FRIENDS TO STUDY.

Called Ms Han regarding house ystrday. Feedback not very positive. Stressed and worried for next year.5 more months to 18 birthday. no walls.

Spend my evening wth ashraf at admiralty park breaking fast.

Stayed up late yesturday until 1.30am to study BEG again!!

Had Exam today. Business Etiquette and Grooming module over.no more BEG.2 more modules to go.3 more Exams.

Now Im searching for jobs at st701,surfing facebook.nthing much to talk about.Im bored.

wEeKeNd

2009-08-31T09:22:00.006+08:00

Went for vocal class on saturday..Acapella was ok.I have to memorize 30+ new beats and rhythm.We are practising the song 'be our guest'..Mr Dillon Foster the new acapella class teacher is HOT!!! Everyone ones says soo..not literally but minority.the girls of course not the guys in class..Btw ashraf, if you happen to read this be angry im stating the fact.beauty is to look upon right?He's average looking australian but the best assets of his is he has nice broad muscular shoulders.very fit.he propably is a workoutholic..hahaah..Miss Aisha's class was mush easier are going to sing the song by mj..I cant remember what.

After class me and ashraf bump into Ms Aishah and her friend.The funny thing was her friend said we both dont look alike,I was like blur before he laughed and said not as in siblings look alike kinda way but somethig else.Since we were fasting, we couldn't eat soo we went to play some arcade games..

Went out with family during sunday. okok..
I understand how he feels..depressed and stress..Money is an evil.Sometimes its a cause to problem.NO MORE PROBLEM.have money also ada masalah.Since its family I have made decision to stay next year.Be it good times or bad,ill stick with you guys zauwin,dad whoeverwho needs me..

Btw its a new month, new day..OBVIOUSLY NOT!!
its tomorrow..
rites gtg nw..

1st day of my life

2009-08-24T10:10:00.002+08:00

Well today is the first day of my life this year fasting.
Im starting to feel hungry now. But then fighting the urge to eat or drink.
Be angry or stuff like that.
Soo far im doing good,considering the fact that im a quick tempered person and I cant resist temptations.
hmm..how will tomorrow fare?

Left home feeling happy and relax.In the lift there was this little girl with her maid who was accompanying her.She looks like any other cute little gurl but the thing that strikes me is that she had this really wide happy smile.Huge wide grin..very uplifting.I dont know her but I was smiling back at her. Very Sweet.
everything seems beautiful..weekend was good,yesturday was great,saturday was awesome!!
I just finished sending my resume to the kindergarten in jurong for my attachment.
Ive already found a job for zauwin but then its still up to him to call me and attend the interview, do well and get the job.

Hais..another 3 more weeks time in school and I NEVER HAVE TO COME TO SCHOOL AGAIN!!
Hahah!

Hmm..the only thing that I need now is $$money.I saw this black pencil skirt at metro on saturday that cause nearly $40.Way over my budget just for 1 plain black simple pencil skirt.
Still considering whether or not to buy it.

Have to continue with my reservation and ticketing now.
bye everyone!!

2009-08-20T14:38:00.005+08:00

I snatched this picture from facebook.
A recent photo.On the day of his hotel performance I think.

Playing at the fountain where I happen to bruise my

calves while trying to climb on. BUT yet it was fun!!=)

I think im being photogenic here.

hmm...

Maybe its all thanks to the camera man!

Recent photo of me and my new hairstyle at the singapore flyer on NATIONAL DAY by ashraf.

I love all these pictures so do I love the GUY that is at the top.Btw his ash if you happen to know him,tell him that.Sent my msg.

2009-08-19T14:27:00.003+08:00

Im feeling all blues and emotional right now maybe due to the fact that I am thinking about them and how things were not meant to be.

So as to distract myself from it,ill just continue on my work.
To actually deny that feelings is completely gone is a lie.
But I have to let go and think about the future with my new beau now.
Think of all the tears and hurt and slowly let go..bit by bit.Not let my past experience ruin the relationship that I am blessed with now.

Like falling leaves in autumn(^_^)

2009-08-03T09:13:00.002+08:00

Gotten myself a new haircut over the weekend.
Exactly like how felicia chin had for a drink advertisement 2years ago.
Whether I like it?
Not really reminds me of a china doll and the never ending same hairstyle from late mid sec 2 to late sec 4.

Not on my own will my it was cut just like the saloma in old malay black white screen.Beehive kinda hair.
They sure had a good laugh about it..FAGERS!!

Considering the hair I got then, it is comparable to be much better now.

With this ruin hairstyle,It spoils my day reason why its another monday blues.

Silence isnt all golden

2009-07-29T13:37:00.004+08:00

This incident happened a while ago but right now im going to relate to it.

I had some disagreements awhile ago at home but its better nw.
The incident isnt much to talk about but then I was given the cold shoulder at first I was puzzled not really knowing what when wrong but now I have a clear view of it and matters are resolved..alhamdulilah..
When the treatment was given a part of me wanted to be ignorant waiting for it to be resolved by its own without my actions and another part was just dying of curiosity and worries.

Now i know that silence isnt always the best way to resolved things and it isnt always a sign of peace...Even right now as I am sitting in the room,it isnt silence its noise..

Noise,noise interruptions,noisy and annoying.How i wish they could just settle down and be mature for once.Laugh like how a lady should,Behave like gentlemens..

Whao!! its nearly a month 2 months away to attachment.1month in school.Time pass fast.
We do things and enjoy life oblivious about how time flies and before we know it..its over.
Next week is gonna be commom test.IM SOO GONNA START HITTING MY BOOKS..

This term is even more compatitive and its harder than before.Especially with Reservation and Ticketing.Still trying to get a hang of it.Slowly yet surely.
Play hard+study ven harder..im more than prepared to burn midnight oil again..Beauty sleep gone,Eyebags welcome!!

Apology spoken

2009-07-23T12:25:00.003+08:00

I would to make a sincere apology for the unintentional wrongdoings that I may have done yesturday and the weeks before.

I would try my hardest not to use the item again unless its my final option.If I soo happen to use it again,I wont screw itup.like i said it was not on purpose,no hard feelings..Im sorry.

Saturday was 1 hell of a day.

2009-07-22T15:26:00.004+08:00

Saturday was not something I would call fun..

even though there were games and stuffs..
I tried hiding and avoiding some people as I dont want to be all pretentious with greeting and well wishes.Thats not want I want.
But in the end people just SOO easily recognise me and I was spotted so I was like smiling and pretending to be all missy missy and urgh!!

There is also this lady whom I would just want to stuff really HOT chilli padi in her mouth..itll shut her up for sure.

well,there's this song im really addicted to right now its ''the show'' by lenka..

theres soo much i wanna say but im really in a rush soo gtg..til then

Unlucky 14 lucky 15?

2009-07-15T12:29:00.002+08:00

Do things happen based on luck,fate or coincidence?

I think things happen based on fate.It cant be changed we cant change fate but we can control the way we react to it.Like for example a misfortune is going to happen to us,instead of taking one route to school instead of the another,we not knowingly avoiding a misfortune or an enemy.But then it is supposed to happen,no matter how much you try to avoid it.Well just as you were about to turn into the corner you bump in the arch enemy or misfortune.

The reason why I my title for this entry is Unlucky 14 lucky 15 is because something bad and good happened.
Paint was on the left side of my head.My phone got wet and dropped resulting in my phone not functioning well til today.What i did about that was after a while of trying to 'repair' I dumped it into the corner.No point being soo worked up because of it.

The good thing??
Phone is in better condition now and...I won a movie ticket!!

hmm..now with all this talk about fate and coincidence..maybe i should use the ticket i have won to watch the upcomimg movie FINAL DESTINATION 4...ooo it be awesome!! hahah

Days in June

2009-07-13T08:30:00.002+08:00

well June was like soo long and I cant really remember what happened..

what I can say is it was well spent.I managed to do a coupla things.

lay back and relax at the beach
reached targeted salary
went out with girlfriends
shopping during the great singapore sale!!
went camping
kayaking
trekking

something I dont really like is getting slightly dark due to the camp i went to organize my republic poly.

During the days I stayed at home,I was bored to nuts watching tv and stuffs..sasha and me were wishing for school to start.that was saturday.But when sunday came it was soo different we were soo not prepared for school.well on my part I was just lazy to wake up in the morning..MY BEAUTY SLEEP.

well i wonder how next june will be.

Speaking out loud

2009-05-28T10:34:00.003+08:00

Basically nothing much happened yesterday..we gave farah a surprise during break time..it went well,we took tons of pictures..currently waiting for corrine to upload or developed the pictures fast.right now im felling very very bored this computer's taking too slow to download...the class is quiet I smell revenge.sweet.they wont get away scot free for sure.not only are they called pussies now they are dogs...(if u knw what I meant girls)..some people are not taught enough in their childhood years or maybe they just left their manners and disclipline in the bathroom this morning..OOPS!! Whoever you are,apologise u knw ur in the wrong..dont start the fire when it is about to be completely extinguish.If its me whom have been taken advantage of I wont hesitate to give them their own medicine.quit the act be yourself grow up.Are u soo desperate to fit in that u would rather be a nuisance?

Im not going to say out names.If you are feeling guilty,then ur the black sheep.

Bumlicious break time fun

2009-05-27T09:36:00.007+08:00

Yesturday after break we went to an empty classroom then started doing crazy stuffs..Basically its mostly me and my crazy ideas with corinne tagging alone..oh yup not to mention,leng li was the camera women...I did the dance act from the movie'hairspray' I was amanda bynes.. not very sure which song.I dance what im most best at.. bum shaking dance..DAMN the ctr lecturer is here..as today would be farah's birthday,we planned on how to celebrate it..hmm,alright we will see how it goes later.

UNTITLED.

2009-05-26T11:25:00.004+08:00

Had to choose a song for vocal class...maybe ill be choosing 'The Climb' by miley cyrus not because that im a huge fan of miley.but because it was the only song I thought about and easier for me to relate.Some might find it eewey to all this teenage idols but if you were to notice they tend to hit the weekly charts more often.I listen to all types of music starting from rock all the way to pop...and I feel strongly that olden music have more influence and magic rather than the modern songs that we hear.This oldies will forever be legendary.

Talking about that the song i chose..sigh i better go rehearse (im NOT prepared to sing to a class of 20..i don't like comparison...)

ITS BREAK TIME!!

New vocab

2009-05-26T11:06:00.002+08:00

¿Por qué tiene que suceder?
I knw the words sounds unfamiliar but this was what I saw on the fron cover page of the movie.

You see I went to a cd stall yesturday to find some interesting movie to feel up the ''BORING'' word written all over my face.Saw this ad of a spanish movie and the heroine was like ¡dios mío! idios mio!idois mio!!

meaning OH MY GOD in english...how I managed to knw?WEBSEARCH...

Why Monday exists..

2009-05-25T08:22:00.000+08:00

Its the same Monday blues again..damn the weekend was soo fast...work work work work..
its always the same thing bout weekends don't you think? when its just around the corner,and ur planning on what to do,ur all hype and excited for the weekend before you can actually lay down and chill...ITS MONDAY!!
Why Why Why???
Not to mention its getting humid in here..this room B3601 does deserve the name 'sauna room'
Damn sleepy ZZZZ
I had a dinner treat yesterday after work at the all famous woodlands interchange.I was soo full that i felt like a stuff dumpling..read some article in the newspaper about contraception,food fanatic person's inspiration on recipes...

SPLASHES

2009-05-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

Was at C.C yesturday towards Cwp when it started raining heavily by the time I reached the traffic junction,I was drenched.I was laughing my head off as my face was wet with rain and my hair dripping wet.Its been a lomg time since I played in the rain..

The rain was freaking heavy believe it?Alrite im running late I gotta return back the key to the G.O..im 17min late..

Bored

2009-05-21T10:30:00.001+08:00

The beginning of my day did not went that well..seems like a lost or forgot to bring $10 along...my morale was kinda down but once arriving in school, i felt better.
I am making a 2nd blog as there were some complications wth the email.
so i just simply cut n paste the latest post.

Ashraf's bro wedding was a huge success..everything went smoothly.During the weekend I slug it out at work.
Basically I havent much to talk about soo..til then..

My first post

2009-05-21T10:26:00.001+08:00

Sometimes patience would be all soo meaningful as bitterness makes way for the sweet pleasures of life...talking about that makes me nauseous again..some geeks making a fool of themselves like always.me and corrine were talking some really2 crazy stuffs...bout babies b4 we turn 24..crazies..my mobile been taken for like 2 days soo far..pizzed.Ashraf's bro getting married this weekend which seems like I wonts be seeing him during vocal..counting it lets see another 4 more days..at least.and ive been reading this book called "saris and sins" by nisha minhas not too bad...1/4 done.not to forget that the author has the same 1st name as me.