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Wednesday, February 15, 2012, 6:15 AM Is there a soulmate for everyone Maybe there isnta thing as a soulmate..your meant to fall in love with someone and get married.I dont feel myself/my life fulled with him.Instead i feel like its half empty.It still doesnt feel right because if this is meant to be real love,its not what ive always hope and dream of. everything doesnt seem real.It doesnt feel pure and heartlifting. Its funny how I wanted to leave him a loong time but yet im still with him. Im not afraid of being lonely like how i was in the past,i wont feel empty without him but yet I cant bear to get out either.Weird isnt it? I know i deserve better.A man with more compassion,love,sensitive who respects and treats me well but yet im still someone like him. Maybe there isnt such a thing as soulmate. Even til this day i still think about shahrin and ashraf but they have both moved on.They looked happy with their gfs now. How i wish i have a man with the kindness,patience, respect and faithfullness like ashraf and the laid-back,interesting,easy going personality like Shah combine. Then Mr Right will be just too perfect right? There is no such thing as perfection in life. And yes,i do feel a bit jealous and regret. Well a young lady has a bit too much to ask for right?? Sigh.Smile. im smiling more nowadays. Whenever theres troubles ill just say encouraging words to myself and smile.Because no one,no man nor woman can make me feel bad unless i allow.Im not letting that happen. Sunday, November 27, 2011, 2:00 AM Love is strong but the heart is fragile Lesson no.56 Love is never weak,Love is strog and pure,Its the heart's that fragile. Love soo strong i just cant leave.But my heart needs repair. If a couple were to quarrel,matters can be resolved. But what if the root of the problem comes from someone else? What if its by someone very close,a family member? Both parties are torn apart and who should be chosen over the love of your life,your missing piece or your family? The lovebirds are doing ok but pressure from his father who is against the marriage who is ALWAYS saying mean things about her and him torn apart yells at her? What do I do? Only time will tell.. We are nearly engaged for a year but his father is still digging up buried bones. I plan.He plan but God decides. (sigh) Thursday, April 07, 2011, 4:37 PM Another totally boring day Another day of waking up late.. Damn i fucking hate it if his mother(im living wth my fiance) tells me that i should waking up early because i am a women..And what kind of 'Anak Darah'.. if i were to translate the words will mean Anak=Child Darah=Blood Anak Darah=Childblood -_-? Ok, so back to the topic again..She will say What kind of Anak Darah wakes up late? What!! only men can wake up late?? And my traditional fiance Agrees with her not to mention his a VERY VERY mummy's boy..And the way his bought up, Women should Wake up in the morning,Cook,Do housework,Take care of the children etc..Men shoudnt THAT IS SOO SEXIST and ludicrous We have total different views of bringing up a child,And he has this typical man mindset(now im sexist) HTH IN THE WORLD DID HIS PARENTS RAISED HIM UP?? HE IS VERY VERY DEPENDABLE ON HIS PARENTS ESP HIS MOTHER,MOM,WHERES MY SOCKS? MON WHERES MY HANDKERCHIEF,MOM CAN YOU COOK FOR ME NUGGETS,MOM CAN YOU GIVE ME $$ (which will eventually become money for his cigarettes) And if i marry this handicap guy(his not handicapped just the way he is soo dependable), All those will fall on me right? His bloody 21!! Is there a sense of independence in him?Just a little sense? All this petty petty little things i say,is it soo hard to do it? Why cant he find his work pants,socks,cook finger food,do his bed, and be more independent? Are men created to be totally dependable on the opposite sex? Some may yes and some may say no. Well, of all the houses i have grown up in,majority of them are independent..Soo my answer is NO.Men are not created to be dependable on Women. Men doing housechores? Well,They do!! Btw Check out this website: marriedromance.com i agree with Another boring day
Thursday, March 03, 2011, 4:23 PM Weekend Soo this weekend is going to be our first trip overseas..Totally alone.. I dont meant to nagg but his mother interferes with our quarrels and its rather annoying..bt obviously dont say that right to her face -_-'' And right now she's forcing him by nagging to him to work in the traun station..wtf. i mean its nothing wrong with that its a good honest job but if his old and work is hard to get then the train station is a co9mpletel ok job bt now he is a fit 21 years old man.A young man working in a train station giving out change and giving out cards and tickets? What will our friends say?What is she thinking? People will laugh at us.. Not only did we dropped out,now he is working in the train station.. And once again obviously i dont tell them this right becoz my fiance is such a mommy's boy that he will tell mommy everything that i tell him not to. Like who am i to voice out n say anything.. He hasnt got the job yet his sending resume.I hope he doesn't get it.. Thursday, February 17, 2011, 4:39 AM Resolution <<< Too late ohkay..i happen to look at this random female friend of mine fb profile and iv egot to admit she looks gorgeous..Well she has a boyish figure and she look GREAT in whatever she wears(i mean frm the picts) Its hard if ur a pear and unproportionate <<> and slightly a bit to the heavy side She has some what inspired me to lose weight..this person i dont know.. Well, my Future mother in law did compare me to herself when she was young.. And my fiance he 'FINALLY' admit that he wants me smaller. And he told me im not pretty but sweet??? I wished my birthday was better.. I didnt celebrated with ANY friends.. Honestly for 19 years of my life a non of my friends have thrown a surprise for me..=) And on my birthday, I met a girl my Fiance fucked. Yes, i do admit that life is kinda lonely these days.. My wish list that Wont be fulfilled A teddy bear A DSLR An engagement party A short holiday wth my fiance HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY!! isst too much to ask? Sunday, January 30, 2011, 3:58 PM A new year, A new goal,A new set of Headache Soo yup, this is my first post for twenty eleven. Im engaged. Im no longer schooling. Right now life just evolves around me going to work, shopping,visiting my family(because i moved in wth my fiance),spending time wth my fiance, and the usual stuffs you do everytime between the time you wake up till the time u go to sleep. Hanging out wth friends? No. Bestfriends? Hah!! Zahirah aka Zara and me are soo Over!! We had a misunderstanding, i tried to apologize but she was all B#$%& about it.. And not t0 forget facebook. Its getting kinda boring though..Its always the same set of ppl wo comments on you or the lack of ppl commenting or nobody commenting.. bORING!! Saturday, December 25, 2010, 1:38 AM A christmas engagement And soo it is..im getting engaged on 26 december to abdul rahman.. wow.soo fast. i want a camera.SLR digital camera. I want to earn money for clothes. Im going to have an engagement dinner wth my future fiance. Engagement party is in february. Slimming is a must. Need to activate my debit card. HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!
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Wednesday, February 15, 2012, 6:15 AM Is there a soulmate for everyone Maybe there isnta thing as a soulmate..your meant to fall in love with someone and get married.I dont feel myself/my life fulled with him.Instead i feel like its half empty.It still doesnt feel right because if this is meant to be real love,its not what ive always hope and dream of. everything doesnt seem real.It doesnt feel pure and heartlifting. Its funny how I wanted to leave him a loong time but yet im still with him. Im not afraid of being lonely like how i was in the past,i wont feel empty without him but yet I cant bear to get out either.Weird isnt it? I know i deserve better.A man with more compassion,love,sensitive who respects and treats me well but yet im still someone like him. Maybe there isnt such a thing as soulmate. Even til this day i still think about shahrin and ashraf but they have both moved on.They looked happy with their gfs now. How i wish i have a man with the kindness,patience, respect and faithfullness like ashraf and the laid-back,interesting,easy going personality like Shah combine. Then Mr Right will be just too perfect right? There is no such thing as perfection in life. And yes,i do feel a bit jealous and regret. Well a young lady has a bit too much to ask for right?? Sigh.Smile. im smiling more nowadays. Whenever theres troubles ill just say encouraging words to myself and smile.Because no one,no man nor woman can make me feel bad unless i allow.Im not letting that happen. Sunday, November 27, 2011, 2:00 AM Love is strong but the heart is fragile Lesson no.56 Love is never weak,Love is strog and pure,Its the heart's that fragile. Love soo strong i just cant leave.But my heart needs repair. If a couple were to quarrel,matters can be resolved. But what if the root of the problem comes from someone else? What if its by someone very close,a family member? Both parties are torn apart and who should be chosen over the love of your life,your missing piece or your family? The lovebirds are doing ok but pressure from his father who is against the marriage who is ALWAYS saying mean things about her and him torn apart yells at her? What do I do? Only time will tell.. We are nearly engaged for a year but his father is still digging up buried bones. I plan.He plan but God decides. (sigh) Thursday, April 07, 2011, 4:37 PM Another totally boring day Another day of waking up late.. Damn i fucking hate it if his mother(im living wth my fiance) tells me that i should waking up early because i am a women..And what kind of 'Anak Darah'.. if i were to translate the words will mean Anak=Child Darah=Blood Anak Darah=Childblood -_-? Ok, so back to the topic again..She will say What kind of Anak Darah wakes up late? What!! only men can wake up late?? And my traditional fiance Agrees with her not to mention his a VERY VERY mummy's boy..And the way his bought up, Women should Wake up in the morning,Cook,Do housework,Take care of the children etc..Men shoudnt THAT IS SOO SEXIST and ludicrous We have total different views of bringing up a child,And he has this typical man mindset(now im sexist) HTH IN THE WORLD DID HIS PARENTS RAISED HIM UP?? HE IS VERY VERY DEPENDABLE ON HIS PARENTS ESP HIS MOTHER,MOM,WHERES MY SOCKS? MON WHERES MY HANDKERCHIEF,MOM CAN YOU COOK FOR ME NUGGETS,MOM CAN YOU GIVE ME $$ (which will eventually become money for his cigarettes) And if i marry this handicap guy(his not handicapped just the way he is soo dependable), All those will fall on me right? His bloody 21!! Is there a sense of independence in him?Just a little sense? All this petty petty little things i say,is it soo hard to do it? Why cant he find his work pants,socks,cook finger food,do his bed, and be more independent? Are men created to be totally dependable on the opposite sex? Some may yes and some may say no. Well, of all the houses i have grown up in,majority of them are independent..Soo my answer is NO.Men are not created to be dependable on Women. Men doing housechores? Well,They do!! Btw Check out this website: marriedromance.com i agree with Another boring day
Thursday, March 03, 2011, 4:23 PM Weekend Soo this weekend is going to be our first trip overseas..Totally alone.. I dont meant to nagg but his mother interferes with our quarrels and its rather annoying..bt obviously dont say that right to her face -_-'' And right now she's forcing him by nagging to him to work in the traun station..wtf. i mean its nothing wrong with that its a good honest job but if his old and work is hard to get then the train station is a co9mpletel ok job bt now he is a fit 21 years old man.A young man working in a train station giving out change and giving out cards and tickets? What will our friends say?What is she thinking? People will laugh at us.. Not only did we dropped out,now he is working in the train station.. And once again obviously i dont tell them this right becoz my fiance is such a mommy's boy that he will tell mommy everything that i tell him not to. Like who am i to voice out n say anything.. He hasnt got the job yet his sending resume.I hope he doesn't get it.. Thursday, February 17, 2011, 4:39 AM Resolution <<< Too late ohkay..i happen to look at this random female friend of mine fb profile and iv egot to admit she looks gorgeous..Well she has a boyish figure and she look GREAT in whatever she wears(i mean frm the picts) Its hard if ur a pear and unproportionate <<> and slightly a bit to the heavy side She has some what inspired me to lose weight..this person i dont know.. Well, my Future mother in law did compare me to herself when she was young.. And my fiance he 'FINALLY' admit that he wants me smaller. And he told me im not pretty but sweet??? I wished my birthday was better.. I didnt celebrated with ANY friends.. Honestly for 19 years of my life a non of my friends have thrown a surprise for me..=) And on my birthday, I met a girl my Fiance fucked. Yes, i do admit that life is kinda lonely these days.. My wish list that Wont be fulfilled A teddy bear A DSLR An engagement party A short holiday wth my fiance HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY!! isst too much to ask? Sunday, January 30, 2011, 3:58 PM A new year, A new goal,A new set of Headache Soo yup, this is my first post for twenty eleven. Im engaged. Im no longer schooling. Right now life just evolves around me going to work, shopping,visiting my family(because i moved in wth my fiance),spending time wth my fiance, and the usual stuffs you do everytime between the time you wake up till the time u go to sleep. Hanging out wth friends? No. Bestfriends? Hah!! Zahirah aka Zara and me are soo Over!! We had a misunderstanding, i tried to apologize but she was all B#$%& about it.. And not t0 forget facebook. Its getting kinda boring though..Its always the same set of ppl wo comments on you or the lack of ppl commenting or nobody commenting.. bORING!! Saturday, December 25, 2010, 1:38 AM A christmas engagement And soo it is..im getting engaged on 26 december to abdul rahman.. wow.soo fast. i want a camera.SLR digital camera. I want to earn money for clothes. Im going to have an engagement dinner wth my future fiance. Engagement party is in february. Slimming is a must. Need to activate my debit card. HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!
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